Well today is Thanksgiving and despite my recent bad news I still have so much to be thankful for.
We had dinner with my husbands family-our neighbors lol. So we didn't have to travel far, thank goodness.
To back up a bit though for a minute. I did talk to the doctor on Tuesday evening.
I asked him a few questions about what type of cancer I had-invasive ductile.
I asked him what the results from the ultrasound and MRI where. He told me that by the ultrasound that my lymph nodes looked diseased and he wants me to have another biopsy done this time on my lymph nodes. He also told me that he is still leaning on doing chemo first.
I am going to keep this short but will post more on when I have a date for the next biopsy-I do have an appointment with my oncologist on Thursday the 3rd of December.
Well I am off to get some pumkin pie-since this if the first day I have been able to eat well in about a week! : )
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Yesterday afternoon I had an ultrasound and MRI done of my lymphnodes. I didn't get an answers yesterday from anyone-I asked to see my pathology report and the Ultrasound tech said she didn't see them in my file. argh. She told me to call my doc in the morning to get results from my MRI and ultrasound.
I called this am and am still waiting for him to call me back. I had to take my mammo's back to the hosp this morning and on my way back I was rear ended. Good grief Charlie Brown. No damage to my car that I could see but I still waited on the cop to get there because I had a hitch on the back of my Yukon and the guy that rear ended me was stuck on the hitch.
So now I am home and ready to take a nap!!!!Hopefully the rest of the week will be better!
I called this am and am still waiting for him to call me back. I had to take my mammo's back to the hosp this morning and on my way back I was rear ended. Good grief Charlie Brown. No damage to my car that I could see but I still waited on the cop to get there because I had a hitch on the back of my Yukon and the guy that rear ended me was stuck on the hitch.
So now I am home and ready to take a nap!!!!Hopefully the rest of the week will be better!
Saturday, November 21, 2009
The Day the world came crashing down
OK so I started this blog to keep up with my family and events that are important so that one day I could look back. Well, it will still be that way but with a new twist.
On November 19, 2009 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Yes that's right I have cancer at the age of 32. It, unfortunately, will be a day that I remember for the rest of my life, But first, let me tell the story of how I got here.
In early September 2009 I was sitting at my computer desk on Facebook. (I think I am an addict) when i moved my shoulder and got a stabbing pain in my chest like I pulled a muscle.
I called my mother in law because it was that bad. She came down got the kids and helped me off the floor. Not sure why I was on the floor. I took some medicine and put a heating pad on it and it soon went away. I noticed a couple of days later that I felt a lump in my right breast close to where I had felt my pulled muscle. I figured it had to do something with that and I would watch it for a week or two.
The weekend of September 26th- Frank and I went to Ashville for our 9th Anniversary. While there ,I noticed the lump was still there and was now sore. I told Frank of my fears and decided when I got back I would make an appointment for my yearly exam.
I made an appointment for my yearly and the earliest I could get in was October 21st. I went to see Dr Brown and told him about my lump-he said it was probably nothing but he was going to send me for a mammo and ultrasound just to be on the safe side.
October 26th-I had my mammo and ultrasound the doc came in and told me I have 4 places one he wanted to have biopsied and the other 3 he said may need a fine needle aspiration because they were probably cysts. Still they couldn't tell me anything because I was in that not nothing but not too worried about it either. It wasn't something that screamed cancer to them.
The next couple of weeks was crazy because I don't have insurance and I needed to find someone to do the biopsy-My step sister had just gone though this process and my step mom told me that she had gotten a Susan G Komen grant to pay for her biopsy(it was clear of cancer)
I called around to see which hospital had grant money-in the meantime Tonya gave me the number to the grant fund at Spartanburg Regional. Where I ultimately wound up at.
I had trouble scheduling everything because I had been so many places and the docs all needed info and there was some miscommunication, but finally I had a date set for Nov. to see a surgeon about getting a biopsy done. He did a quick ultrasound and said it was something too, just didn't know what and he wasn't too concerned about it.
On November 15th-I finally had the biopsy done, not a pleasant experience to say the least! My numbing medicine kept wearing off and it seemed to take forever. I felt every bit of the last place they biopsied. Frank went with me and I am so glad he did because I hurt all the way home and for the next couple of days.
On November 19th-We arrived back at the surgeons office at 2:15. I had already had a bad day.
The HE washer flooded the laundry room floor and I had a small emotional meltdown on the phone with Frank. I had a gut feeling that morning that new was not going to be good. I don't know how to describe it but a very heavy feeling in my gut-the same feeling I had a couple of months earlier when I was in Ashville.
By 3:35 we were still waiting for the doctor to come in and see us. I knew then that the news wasn't good. Other patients that got there after us had been called and had left. At about 3:45 the doc came in and sat down and said exactly this "All 3 places biopsied came back cancer" It was almost like he was in disbelief as well. I was trying to listen with all my heart and I heard a few things he said. Which wasn't much because he told us everything after cancer would go in one ear and out the other. I glanced over at Frank while he was talking to see him lift his glasses and wipe away tears. I was choking my own tears back. I wanted to hear everything the doctor said.
When he asked me about an oncologist I asked him to refer me to one. I told him I had no insurance. He said he was going to treat me like a queen no matter what. He said that he and his nurse were going to take great care of me and get everything scheduled for the next step. When he walked out of the room, Frank walked over and put his arm around me, and I lost it. Not like uncontrollably, but I did cry. I think I was in too much shock. Deb, mother in law, called while we were still there and I had to hand the phone to Frank. I couldn't even say the word! I know people were starting to wonder what the outcome was going to be since everyone knew our appointment was at 2 and no one had heard from us by 4:15. I got my appointment for an MRI and ultrasound of my lymph nodes, since we were only told it was cancer. They didn't know what kind of breast cancer of how far it has spread. We didn't talk about treatment options since we didn't have all the facts yet.
This is far from being over and has all just begun. I have been through every emotion-not openly yet. I have cried, I have been angry, I have asked why me? I have enough on my pate GOD why me? Seriously I know he never gives us more than we can handle but I am NO SUPERWOMAN! There has to be something behind this, a lesson, something. why would GOD, knowing I have already had somewhat of a stressful like put something on my plate like this and why now? I don't know those answers but in time HE will show me. I have a HUGE network of family and friends that have already shown their support for me. I have so many people that care and are not going to let me fail or fall!
Well here it is Saturday November 21st and I have finally had a day of rest. I will continue to blog throughout my journey. Some about the medical aspects and some about my emotional. Even some about my family, since this is what the original blog was about. : )
On November 19, 2009 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Yes that's right I have cancer at the age of 32. It, unfortunately, will be a day that I remember for the rest of my life, But first, let me tell the story of how I got here.
In early September 2009 I was sitting at my computer desk on Facebook. (I think I am an addict) when i moved my shoulder and got a stabbing pain in my chest like I pulled a muscle.
I called my mother in law because it was that bad. She came down got the kids and helped me off the floor. Not sure why I was on the floor. I took some medicine and put a heating pad on it and it soon went away. I noticed a couple of days later that I felt a lump in my right breast close to where I had felt my pulled muscle. I figured it had to do something with that and I would watch it for a week or two.
The weekend of September 26th- Frank and I went to Ashville for our 9th Anniversary. While there ,I noticed the lump was still there and was now sore. I told Frank of my fears and decided when I got back I would make an appointment for my yearly exam.
I made an appointment for my yearly and the earliest I could get in was October 21st. I went to see Dr Brown and told him about my lump-he said it was probably nothing but he was going to send me for a mammo and ultrasound just to be on the safe side.
October 26th-I had my mammo and ultrasound the doc came in and told me I have 4 places one he wanted to have biopsied and the other 3 he said may need a fine needle aspiration because they were probably cysts. Still they couldn't tell me anything because I was in that not nothing but not too worried about it either. It wasn't something that screamed cancer to them.
The next couple of weeks was crazy because I don't have insurance and I needed to find someone to do the biopsy-My step sister had just gone though this process and my step mom told me that she had gotten a Susan G Komen grant to pay for her biopsy(it was clear of cancer)
I called around to see which hospital had grant money-in the meantime Tonya gave me the number to the grant fund at Spartanburg Regional. Where I ultimately wound up at.
I had trouble scheduling everything because I had been so many places and the docs all needed info and there was some miscommunication, but finally I had a date set for Nov. to see a surgeon about getting a biopsy done. He did a quick ultrasound and said it was something too, just didn't know what and he wasn't too concerned about it.
On November 15th-I finally had the biopsy done, not a pleasant experience to say the least! My numbing medicine kept wearing off and it seemed to take forever. I felt every bit of the last place they biopsied. Frank went with me and I am so glad he did because I hurt all the way home and for the next couple of days.
On November 19th-We arrived back at the surgeons office at 2:15. I had already had a bad day.
The HE washer flooded the laundry room floor and I had a small emotional meltdown on the phone with Frank. I had a gut feeling that morning that new was not going to be good. I don't know how to describe it but a very heavy feeling in my gut-the same feeling I had a couple of months earlier when I was in Ashville.
By 3:35 we were still waiting for the doctor to come in and see us. I knew then that the news wasn't good. Other patients that got there after us had been called and had left. At about 3:45 the doc came in and sat down and said exactly this "All 3 places biopsied came back cancer" It was almost like he was in disbelief as well. I was trying to listen with all my heart and I heard a few things he said. Which wasn't much because he told us everything after cancer would go in one ear and out the other. I glanced over at Frank while he was talking to see him lift his glasses and wipe away tears. I was choking my own tears back. I wanted to hear everything the doctor said.
When he asked me about an oncologist I asked him to refer me to one. I told him I had no insurance. He said he was going to treat me like a queen no matter what. He said that he and his nurse were going to take great care of me and get everything scheduled for the next step. When he walked out of the room, Frank walked over and put his arm around me, and I lost it. Not like uncontrollably, but I did cry. I think I was in too much shock. Deb, mother in law, called while we were still there and I had to hand the phone to Frank. I couldn't even say the word! I know people were starting to wonder what the outcome was going to be since everyone knew our appointment was at 2 and no one had heard from us by 4:15. I got my appointment for an MRI and ultrasound of my lymph nodes, since we were only told it was cancer. They didn't know what kind of breast cancer of how far it has spread. We didn't talk about treatment options since we didn't have all the facts yet.
This is far from being over and has all just begun. I have been through every emotion-not openly yet. I have cried, I have been angry, I have asked why me? I have enough on my pate GOD why me? Seriously I know he never gives us more than we can handle but I am NO SUPERWOMAN! There has to be something behind this, a lesson, something. why would GOD, knowing I have already had somewhat of a stressful like put something on my plate like this and why now? I don't know those answers but in time HE will show me. I have a HUGE network of family and friends that have already shown their support for me. I have so many people that care and are not going to let me fail or fall!
Well here it is Saturday November 21st and I have finally had a day of rest. I will continue to blog throughout my journey. Some about the medical aspects and some about my emotional. Even some about my family, since this is what the original blog was about. : )
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